Yesterday was the first day of my 29th year. And I can honestly say that I am excited to see what the rest of this year holds. It began with enjoying sunshine on the beach, time with friends and lots of love all around. This past year or so, I have done a lot of fighting against my circumstances. My 27th year I grieved over leaving Papua New Guinea, searched for where God would have me next, found the unexpected in Australia and began this new journey across the pacific. And then instead of taking the physical steps I thought were next, 28 turned into being ‘stuck’ in California. But ‘stuck’ is more the frustrating mindset rather than reality, California is just part of the journey. Despite my frustrations, I never doubted God’s presence but instead of accepting His timing, I still did everything in my power to push and control. But my outlook is slowly changing. So here I am, 29, in California, heading towards Australia and I am learning (again and again) that God is way more in control of timing than I am. I feel like part of being 29 will be to accept God’s control while not sacrificing motivation and direction. Trusting God’s wisdom and knowing in both my heart and my head that He has a beautiful plan for my life.
Looking at my phone yesterday reminded me that my life is a mix of past, present and future. “Na Henelu Bule” is an encouraging Onobasulu phrase and it makes me smile. It is a sweet reminder of God’s past faithfulness. And Kangaroos keep me looking forward towards Australia, listening to God’s leading and continuing to take steps in that direction. So I can remember the past, look forward to the future and yet be ok with the date, accepting that I am here in California. I am not here by mistake, I am here because this is where I need to be right now. I can plan for the future but at the same time recognize that I don’t control future. And you know what? That is ok. I need to of course keep preaching this to myself but it is ok. Surprises, frustrations, exciting changes and detours down the road are guaranteed but I am truly excited for the future. 29 is going to be a good year.